i think im in need of some strengths. I know the strenghths but im lazy. Im lazy to do lots of things. Even to think. I dislike my current condition. There are times i'll be so motivated that i found myself not having enough time to fulfill every single deeds that i want to do. But now it's the opposite. How i wish i am the eager me. But come to think of it, i was always being reminded that 'iman' has its ups and downs. When it is in its down cycle mood, there are actually lots of ways to make it go up higher again. Then this reminds me of a song by opick tombo ati. Maybe i should do one of the ways in order to cleanse up everything that contribute to me being a not-so-productive one.

Entri

Baru balik dari Melbourne. Penat tapi gembira. Banyak pengisian yang bes. Antara salah satu yang terlekat kat hati adalah dari kak aini. Dikisahkannya tentang seorang kawannya yang sangat kesian, kurang disukai oleh cikgu-cikgu dan senior-senior yang lain walaupun dia rasa dia dah buat yang terbaik dalam menjaga hati mereka-mereka itu. Hinggakan dari sekolah menengah dicalonkan jadi pengawas sampai di ipt tercalon jadi mpp semuanya tak berjaya hanya kerana tidak disukai. Dia pun bingung tak tahu kenapa. Jadi dari situ dia bertekad biarlah apa yang manusia lain nak rasa kat dia. Sebab mustahil kita nak puaskan hati suma org. Manusia. Susah nak jangka. Pada dia apa yang penting adalah pandangan Allah terhadap dia. Buat apa kalau kita harapkan semua orang suka kat kita tapi Allah tak suka. Selagi kita nak menurut kehendak setiap manusia selagi itulah memang takkan habis2. Sebabnya, manusia tak boleh lihat kedalam hati. mcm saya juga. Tapi Allah boleh. Allah tak menilai pada rupa. Tapi manusia selalu begitu. Mcm saya jugak. Nk berkawan memilih yang sama taraf atau sama minat dan lainlain lagi.
Oh ye sebenarnya tazkirah tu dan kisah tu adalah nk relate dgn kisah pemindahan kiblat. Pada waktu itu kiblat yang asalnya dipindahkan ke Masjidilharam (Makkah) telah diperintahkan oleh Allah agar dipindahkan ke Baitulmaqdis (Jerusalem). Berita ini telah menggembirakan hati para Yahudi dan mereka mengejek2 umat Islam pada masa itu dengan menganggap betapa itu menunjukkan mereka adalah bangsa pilihan Allah. Ini benar-benar menguji iman Nabi SAW dan para sahabat pada waktu itu. Nabi SAW walaupun kurang gembira dengan wahyu tersebut tidak berani untuk memohon doa kepada Allah agar kiblat itu tidak dipindahkan. Kerana itu adalah perintah Allah. Kisah tadi tu adalah nk relate dgn kisah ini. Betapa walaupun dicemuh, Nabi SAW dan para sahabat yang teguh imannya tetap menurut perintah Allah walaupun hati tak suka dan menjadi bahan cemuhan orang-orang kafir Quraisy dan Yahudi pada waktu itu. Tetapi akhirnya, kiblat dipindahkan kembali ke Masjidilharam. Rujuk (2:142). Maka terdiam la balik mereka2 yang mencemuh2 itu.
pengajarannya di sini yang boleh diambil just peringatan untuk diri saya sendiri biar tak cool pada mata manusia asalkan cool di mata Allah. Tak cool=neraka. Nauzubillah.

updates

im back in Sydney now...
my mom send me a parcel
im happy...
i wanna go to the new zealand... touring 4 cities (Auckland, Wellington, Dunedin, Christchurch) but i dun hv money... gotta wait until nxt year which i dunno when
i lurve melbourne and wanna go back there.........
and brisbane...... ooh summer~

saje-saje

You Should Date An Italian!

You love for old fashioned romance, with an old fashioned guy. An Italian guy is the perfect candidate to be your prince charming. If your head doesn't spin enough, just down another espresso with himInvest in a motorcycle helmet - and some carb blocker for all that pasta!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

An Italian? Anton? ahahahahaahh

Three plaques

One pearl of wisdom taken from La Tahzan :)
A wise person hung up three plaques in his office that he would read daily. Written on the first was, "Your today, your today!" Meaning, live within the boundaries of today, working and striving.
The second said, "Reflect and be thankful."" Meaning, contemplate Allah's blessings upon you and then be grateful. And "Don't be angry," was written on the third.

inspirational isnt?

me; a hypocrite

i think im a hypocrite... i dislike certain people...it's not hate but....i mean why in the world i should have these feelings esp towards someone ... reading motivational books sumtimes help though... but as a human being i always forget... i keep to have this disliking over n over again... it's not good to hate...it makes me feeling out of breath esp when im forcing myself to let go of those feelings... I hope Allah will help me with these... Mujahadah is the word

moon

the moon's shining so brightly rite now. It's shining so bright that the light reaches inside my room. Never ive seen such brightness of the moon since being here in Sydney. Maybe it's there all this time, it's just me not noticing it. The people who cares a lot about me, in my opinion is like the moon. Only appreciated by me when it really shines. Not it, they. There are just too many ppl who really love and care and the worst thing is i always forget about them. bad me. I cant help it but blaming my own self for that.

no idea

Got nothing inspirational to write today. In fact im forcing myself to write right now. Still couldnt figure out something meaningful to write. Im just hopeless. hehe as if i always write something inspirational...duh... doink!~ Well, Ive just paid my 600 dollar deposit today and now im deadly broke and now i dont have enough money to pay for the next month's accomodation rent. Im not afraid just worried altho i heard that the government are going to give back the backdated allowance which is worth 600 dollars. I hope they will come out before next year. I dun even bother to topup my hp. It's too much amount of money i guess considering the situation that im facing rite now. Er, too much of complaining eh? Btw, im soo looking forward for the fruit picking in victora, my job in 2 weeks time. it's not only about the money, but the experience. It's true by the time i'll be back from victoria, i'll be hitam and thinner (hehe mungkin..harap2) but they dun really matter me all. it is something. about something. Yerp there'll be something. That something.